raye ke?

BUSY BUSY BUSY! oh wow i've been complaining for the past few weeks i believe. yes, school is getting busier, tougher, and annoying! lol i just felt like travelling and HAVE FUN out there. aigooo! studying on friday night is even worse, and yet people back home is busy preparing for the eid. nice gituuuuuu!! arghhh! I WANNA GO HOMEEEEE BADLY!!! glad that my family called when i was studying in the library? lol, good timing indeed! been busy back then that i couldnt have time to talk to my mom. difference in time is urrghh, annoying! everyone is home, not everyone coz some siblings have to go to their in laws'. but of course half of us is already 'macam nk pecah rumah'. big family indeed! i even asked my mom what should i cook for the eid? n seriously i jot down the recipe in my BMSC notes.lol. but the best part was when my mom showed me BAJU RAYE that she bought from her so-called Cik Kiah Bandung trip with my aunts and uncles. Seriously baju raye for next year? mak cakap 'adik balek malaysia baru ukur n hantar jahit acording to her new fashion style. haha seriously balek malaysia?! i wish i have that much money to go homeeeeeee! aigoo naseb baek tahan nanges though kne bahan with my own niece since my friends were around.  humm how i MISS THEM  badly right now. homesick gituuuu! :P

ur just not up to my standard, gitu!

malaysians loveeee drama!

arghhh stop pissing me off pls!

coz i'm boiling inside, seriously

when i reach the limit

u wouldnt see me as i am right now

aaarrghhhhh marah hell org yg tak paham bahase ni!!!

damn, i got my own so-called standard, whatver!

ok, that kind of person is not meant for TKC girls!

like seriously, i think none of my PHOENIX sisters can handle that person!

hahah overr gitu!

wow i'm glad that i had a 'girls talk' with a friend that i could actually trust here :)

wallaweyhhh, banyak betol drama dalam hidup ni

All is well iA

org cakap jgn mengeluh, tak baek

oh well i got so many things to say

but maybe i'll just talk about some stuffs

i'm BACK in Saskatoon, a place that I would love to explore more

hidden beauty, indescribable uniqueness n yes beautiful people

so here I am, meeting my awesome Toon hooligans again

i went back for 2months but they feel like it was more than that

'how was ur bf? did u lose weight? how's travelling? etc.

'i see ur awesome pictures'!

the first 2 questions mmg tak bole blah

well i didnt meet my so called bf, but i met my crazyyyy PHOENIX girlfriendsssss

i didnt have a good apetite for some reasons but i ate what i needed to eat

oh n i SWEAT a lot too!

balek malaysia turon 2.5 kg okaaay! gilo

basically the 2 months that i spent wasnt toooo great

time flew so fast eh?

i was a bit disappointed that i didnt get to have 'my own time with mom'

i wanted to travel or at least shopping would do

just like last time

she got other commitments i believe :(

but basically i had a good time with my family n relatives

2 years shouldnt feel like 20 years, hopefully

looking forward to graduate n earn my own money! :)

i had a bad dream a few days ago. something related to my family, a sad one n i even cried badly. n yet, i got a call 2 days ago from Malaysia. mak was admitted to the hospital. only Allah knows how i feel at that time. I was scared to death coz I'm still stuck in Canada if something happens. I was sick that I thought I needed my mom. But I guess mak needs her kids more for the moment. I've been updated by my bro n sys n even my niece about mak's conditions. haish jgnla homesick. All is well iA. yeah keep telling myself to b cool with it or at least act cool about it. get well soon mak! i wish i'm right beside u at this time :(

silence

believe it or not

being silent is somehow the best weapon

the best thing that u can do

whenever u cant take it anymore

i'm a very sensitive person

n seriously i'm not that 'pure' inside

so yeah, it's better to keep it down

i mean not to fight back

coz i seriously agree with the malay idiom

'idiom' ke?

whatever laa

kerana pulut santan binasa

kerana mulut badan binasa

i believe that once i burst,

i may look VERY mean to everyone

n yes people, i really mean it

Jodoh

jodoh dan peretemuan

semua tu di tangan Tuhan

tak usah diingat bende yang lalu

mcm la org tu ingat kat kite

hey u woman!

be STRONG la

no matter how hard it's gonna b

ur gonna make it through

forget the past for real

only then everything's gonna b fine

ratio guys to girls kan dah nk balance

ape nk risau?

ececece

even if it takes yearssssss

jodoh tu takkan ke mana

tak payah dicari-cari

it's not something that i really have to worry about eh

n yes i do believe in Him

He has planned something really GOOD iA :)

:(

this is not the summer that i want

for some reasons

i just cant wait to go back to Canada

maybe i dont belong to this place anymore

or maybe

i'm too sensitive about everything

n even the day i landed

i've already stressed myself out too much

i'll come back again when everything has settled down 

eotteohge?

i managed to 'like' someone again but after i get closer to that someone, (almost everyday jumpe or just online n do crazy stuffs or whatever) i dont feel anything anymore. ouch.not once or twice but couple of times already :( maybe i get bored easily or or they're just not my type! HAHAHA!  n please please please dont show interest in me coz i just hate it. i'd rather live without knowing how others feel about me. being in relationship is a serious matter for me coz i just dont give a sh** in my life! no more drama or whatever u wanna call it coz i cant handle it anymore. i'm happy being single but for some reasons i dont like how i feel right now. i'm not being ignorant or deniable of what's happening around me, but i think i'm just too scared of taking the risk! oh what a chicken! what should i do? *ok study rajin2 pastu habeskan duit JPA* perfect! :D