will U wait for me??

i've been thinking these days n i've decided on something..i found it hard to forget u n i dunno y i'm so stupid that i'm still waiting for u..i've been stalking ur fb profile for evry single day, i've been waiting for ur txt messages n calls. but i heard nothing from u..maybe i should start to accept the fact that i'm no longer important in ur life n u may not even care bout me anymore.. all my so called "move-on plans" seem to not work out very well coz i still think or maybe relate anything that i do with u..it has been 3 months, but i still can't forget u..i've read an article in ur fb profile, regarding "couple"..it's about the good things of not having that kind of relationship.it made me think though..it'll b great if u dumped me because of that reason.i would probably understand n that's y i came up with a thought. i dun wanna go for a serious relationship, but it'll only be for marriage..it's good that i dun have any feelings in guys anymore.so in 4 years time, my heart should b good to accept someone in my life.someone, which is U! but for now i'm just wondering if u'll b thre for me at that time. WILL U WAIT FOR ME?? i can keep my words that i wont find someone else to replace u coz i just want my heart to b knocked once.it'll b great if u have the same thought as me.and it'll b so goooood if u dont find someone else to replace me..i miss u, but thre's nothing i can do.i can only express it through my writings. n today, it should b our 2nd anni..u might forget about it, but i'll never ever forget it. u, happy anniversary sayang. 

this cowgirl misses her cowboy so much!!*ouch*

for some reasons, i really really really want u to read this.but i know it's kinda possible for u to read my post like u used to do.is thre any other way that i can tell u about what i feel??hah!!sudah2 la tu..*ayat from some of my frens* wtv it is, i'll go with the flow..kalau ade, ade la..we can only plan, but ALLAH will decide the BEST for us.insyaallah..

when "teen" is over

i never thought that i can i have a great birthday though i'm milessss awaaay from my beloved ones. but things seem to b good when i get to know great friends who used to b strangers. a day before my "big" day, we went out for bowling.man, it's been a whileeee.i never played bowling since i landed in canada.gleeee rinduuu!!!

n then we went "lepaking' at the river side,taking some pics, n freezing in the cold. nevertheless, sunset in saskatoon is awesome!

 

n later we had dinner in Afghan restaurant, whre we laughed a LOT, as if the restaurant is ours! this is all because of Raj, with his crazy experiences when he was in "ragging period" at the university back home!hahaha..man, u 're so FUNNY!!!

  

yes, i had a great time, but at da same time i'm so nervous to wait for the next day..grrrr.. people in malaysia have started sending me messages, with great wishes, but thre's one particular person that i've been waiting for like evry second.i was pretty sure that i wont b having a good clebration like what i had last year, but i'm still hoping for a GOOD one.distance n diffrnce in time din stop me from being appreciated by the beloved ones, n i'm so glad that person called me n made me happy for at least an hour. :)))

it's sux to have a lab on my big day, but my friends here really made my day.i can feel the love in the air..ece

 

my fren got me this ice-cream barbie cake.comel, an?haha

 

my wishes are dot dot dot.erk, i said my wishes loudly in front of my frens which are a bit embarassing!haha

my fren ckp x bole sebut kuat2, nnt x kesampaian..erk,,,alaaaaaaaaa!!xpela, ade rezki, ade la an, ade jodoh ade la..kahkahkah

  

this is where all the continents met, at New Island Sushi! we have people from Europe,Africa, South America n of course, Asia. but NORTH AMERICA is missing??hahaha..xpatot betol!!

 

i had sooo much FUN during my birthday. Thanx to my international frens for the treat n giftsss!Raj got me a bunny, so that i can remember "bunny" hill, instead of barney!haha.n thomas got me medicine for my injuries.they said i really need it because i'm so active here.ye ke??naseb baek ubat sapu, klu ubat mkn, erk xtermakan la jwabnye..huhu..n the girls got me chocholates, n some stuffs from hallmark.n they want to bring me to the mall for shopping!!uhuk3..terharu nyeee..coz i've stopped shopping afta the last wintr break!hehe

n not to forget to my family n frens back home..kakak2 ku, nice pantun yek!to my beloved sister, k.jehan, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to u too..nnt balek kte celebrate on june 1st, instead,ok??n to my frens, thanx for the wishes, i really appreciate them so muuuccchhhhh!!!luv u guys sgt2!!

*xnk 20,tp nk 'teen' lagi. klu sebot twenteen ok x??*

Aura bukit merbah, seremban

08012003, tarikh keramat that has changed my entire life.dat morning, mak, abah, kmiza,abg sudin,kjehan n kanak2 sent me to this place.hati kate xnk, tp gagahkan jugak.. i got a CS(college sister).K.sha namenye. dat year, Petra Nabila agak famous because of SUKMA.n my family pon g tanye la mane PETRA NABILA? n my CS (suare agak demping sket), owh PET??ade td, xtaw kat mane dah. owh, batch name die PET?cool!
after evrything settled, family ckp nk balek.n to cover my sadness, i asked them to bring me out.nk beli pe yag patot.konon la.padahal sume barang dh complete kot!n as expected, i cried a lot when my family left. *I XPENAH RELA MASOK ASRAMA*. rutin harian, kol mak kalau bole evryday. xsah kalau x nanges. public fon jd my bestfren!visitors nk every week, n outing pon nk every week gak. n i always have my own OB (outing bermalam).suke2 je.alasan, homesick! slalu kuar masok bilik HEM, mase tu Datin Hjh Zuraidah. always be my kesayangan la!haha..untill one point, abah dtg,n i said, *ADIK NK QUIT!!*..last2 masok bilik pengetua(Pn. rokiah).pergh!!XJD QUIT tros!but i've told my abah, stay smpi form3 je eh.pastu x nk dh dok cni.my family pon mengiyekan la. KONON! tup2, stay gak smpi f5!haha



dining hall dear, i miss ur breakfast, lunch,tea, dinner n supper, especially WAHI!!kat cni je bole jumpe kot!



i miss diz suasane as well..but i'm not sure whether i shud miss the moment when i was a junior, (f1 n f2 esp)
*fork n spoon slalu hilang sbb seniors suke pinjam n slalu suro parents pos fork n spoon. xbole ckp2 or borak2 with juniors yg laen, n then tgn x bole atas meja, x bole stare seniors, nnt afta mkn kne panggil. n xbole tdo, but juniors mesti la slalu tdo an, dh name pon xleh wat pape kat table..* tp mase dh seniors mmg heaven la an, nk memekak satu table pon bole, gossips apetah lg. juniors jgn dgr plssss!!pantang gitu!!haha..
owh yeah, dining hall ade 2 bhgn. da 1st one, yg ade hi-table is called HOLLYWOOD n da one yg dekat ngan food counter, SETINGGAN. from f1-f5, mmg dok HOLLYWOOD je babe!mase f5 mmg btol2 depan hi-table!pergh!standard tggi gak la tu!.*konon*.tp slalu je kne serang ngan wardens yg xbrape nk puas ati tu!haha.but then, mase ramadhan, ade changes la plak! xpasal2 kne duduk SETINGGAN??omgosh!! dh nk habes baru turon standard g duduk situ?naseb baek x lame!tp best gak, slalu bole dpt food extra, n nk curi2 mkn awl mase hi-table dinner pon bole.xbrape nk kantoi!hahaha.



rindu makan ikan keli masak cili hijau.favourite tu!mkn hari2 pun xpe. mase juniors slalu dtg kantin, bukan sbb kaye tp slalu kne suro bli food.seniors mmg pemalas nk jln g kantin. tp yg best, slalu dpt upah.haha. ble dh senior pun, i did da same thing.mase dh f5 esp.nk study konon.from AR1, jerit pggl jun2 kat ats.n not to forget, blanje dorunk skali.fair enough, kn??



mase BADA.aktiviti agame.i'm a naqibah, hi com plak tu.so kne la bg contoh yg baek.tp x brape nk baek gak. slalu borak kot mase BADA. xpon, tertdo.hahaa.



ade maksud tersirat byk gle for dis pic. AWAS!!.tp dh berkubur kot.ramai dh *slamat*..yg stay, bagos la..

ini kwn2 bola sy.kami berempat support MU, except ateng, Chelsea. mmg slalu kne condemn la. go ManU!
when i went to Moscow, i got some sort like miniature for them. i couldnt find ManU, so I just bought AC Milan.evrybody got a miniature of different players n sizes.n for myself, i hold for KAKA, da biggest one!obviously la kan! hehe


for now, I miss Bukit Merbah a lot, n I can still feel da aura.siyes, x tpu!
junior or senior, both give memories that will never fade..
zaman buli-membuli, cintan-cintun, starter-marter, kutuk-mengutuk, gossipssss, naek rooftop, stay up for performances, date dgn starters, blablablabla...n they will always remain as memories.

i'll come back to u, TKC! will always luv u. 

*keep the flag flying up high*

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Pe pandang-pandang??

It's eid people!!!!

N I'm stucked in saskatoon!

Solat raye in a school since not enough space in masjid

If Malaysia, tmpt pompuan sume putih, tp cni colorful plak!

Khutbah raye but get distracted by kids

Nape ade lmbg pas sesat kt situ?haha

Terserempk with my ank2 murid as well

sempt pose jap with Dalal. I'm wearing kbaye ok??haha

wif my housemate, Aziza

Afta solat, my frenz dropped me at the campus

coz I need to hand in my assignmnts, phy.

G claz kjap la.dlm 15 mnts je sbb dh lewat sgt.n mamat yg slalu dok 1row with me pki kopiah.

Ok, die Muslim rupenye.tbe2 rse nk wish raye, skali die plak wish dlu.haha.

Afta claz, lepak with Julia!!

julia is a Sudanese n she's damn nice

"Today is ur Eid, u shud njoy urself!"

n she helped me a lot today, including settling my fido account

we had gud time together

n she likes my kebaye soooo much

n i think i shud get her one later coz she's being a gud fren to me

n i just realized, mat2 salleh sume pndg me dgn agk pelik

"pe pandang-pandang??"

i nmpk cntik ke pelik??hahahha

if ainaa n afyqah were here, we wud simply say: "SLAMAT ARI RAYE"

like wut we did during da last eid in edmonton..haha

Julia n me

 at nite, another "eid celebration"

Dalal, Aziza, Ghina n me went to a Muslim restaurant

lots are muslims are there

but the thing is, women n men are separated??

like they can't eat together??

nape plik sgt??ssh la nk mkn wif family, kn?haish

Ghina x suke amek gambr.agk pelik bcoz i think she's soooo hot!!

 

dtg lmbt, so dishes for buffet tgl sket je..

xkesah, jnji dpt mkn..n tmbh 2x kot nasi 

tho pg raye mkn subway je.. =(

rendang, ketupat, lemang, xde pon!!!!

kenyang jugak,,,alhamdulillah..

afta dinner, we watched new moon!!

tp aziza x join sbb ade byk keje

n in canada, seat kre 1st come 1st serve

which is sape masok cinema dlu, boleh plih seat

ktorg lmbt, so kne dudok dpn2 tu ha

mak oi!! edward n jacob dpn mate je ok??

pening tgk!tp jnji had fun!

n otw back, fmily kol

i know they're damn busy coz my sister is getting married today!!!
ble ckp ngan mak, both of us nanges

tho mase tu mak sebok tgh lyn tetamu

rindu mak!rindu abah!rindu family!!!!

adik xde kat sane, tp adk pki kbaye yg supposenye pki mase knduri taw!!!

evryone here tried their hard to make me happy during da eid

coz they know how sad am i having eid that is waaaaaay different from backhome

i feel so grateful to have u guys around

tq sooooooooooo much!

slamat hari raye everyone!!!

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