one word.RINDU.

rindu mak.n last week borak ngan mak 3-4days berturut-turut :)awesome2..rindu abah.tp asyik xde chance nk borak. :( rindu abang akak sume, n dpt borak wif some of them je during family gathering@bukit jalil.mereka berlagak sbb tgh makan besar, with lauk-pauk yg marvellous, cooked by cheffs terhebat, mak n k.jehan. n mereka berlagak duit bonus maseh byk lagi.em, mereka sume xsabar nk kne PAW tu!xpe, tggu kepulangan adk kesayangan korang!haha.rindu ank2 sdare.mcm2 kerenah can be seen from the webcam.baby umar dh pndi jalan, makin montel, tp maintain putih+jambu. n he smiled at me!ntah kenal lagi ke x.heh.baby Oni dh kuros, makin chomeyl+cantek, tp agak sombong.ciss, nnt asu jugak yg mama korang cari to babysit! Amal still maintain hero hindustan.hnsem lagi.n JAffni??my hero yg maintain gemok+lawak.die merajuk sb xdpt mainan before dat, but when i called him, he came to the laptop.i showed him my iphone, dgn muke belagak, telling him about the games that i have.as usual, *terlopong* budak tu!tros baek from merajuk!!sbb he wanted to berlagak wif me jugak!!durh!we were talking n teasing each other.i know it sounds childish for me, but i just cant help it.jaffni is like my fav ank sdare coz die yg paling lwk!*x pilih kaseh, ok?* die bajet ensem, tp x ensem sgt pon.slalu terlopong n tunjok his lubang hidung yg besar tu!hahah. n then he said, "asu, kte dh KUAT da!!"..ece, belagak!nk cari gaduh la tu!alahai..we used to fight, n he always bully me coz he thinks he's stronger than me..badan byk lemak nk lawan dgn i yg agk tulang, mmg saket laa..adeyh..n i rindu my darling girlfriends, da PHOENIX sisters.happy like hell after dpt borak wif my long-lost badak!lame gle kot x boraaaakkkk!!but still, xpuas.need to have a REAL talk later.n NQ is always thre to hear my inner screams,to jump into my current feelings, n to cry together coz we're at the same point, the weakest one. rindu mereka.those girlfriends that will shre good things, that will make my day a blast one, B, aness, zan, auni, atul,dan mereka sume.but if i  miss them, i could do something to get them.for now i miss someone badly, but thre's nothing that i can do to reach that person. it has been 2 months, but i dont think i'm over him. in one month time, it'll b our supposedly 2nd anni.owh crap!!i'm such a LOSER!!memories, pls dont chase me..or maybe i'm the one who has to forget the memories!!

the weather is good now.tho i'm not in a good mood, but i always try my best to keep myself happy. last weekend, i did nothing much.but went for a walk with my housemate on saturday was a good one!

makin hari makin syg saskatoon :))

n on sunday, somebody borrowed me car..

driving in saskatoon??hell yeahh!

80km/h is gud enough for the first attempt..

naseb baek xde polisssss!!haha

i think he's the one!

i wanted to share this thing earlier, but i dunno why, i went blank when i was about to write it.hermm, dat's ok coz i'm writing it now. it'll b a bit funny coz i just wanna talk about the latin guy that i've mentioned earlier.let's call him as "T". i found him as an intresting one coz each day he makes me to know more about him. that day we were struggling in the chem lab, answering some "stupid" questions, whre the TA also din know how to explain it to us.owh yeah, we were quite unlucky for getting the hardest set of questions.i was so stressed up at dat time, n i kept on complaining. because i was STARVING at dat time!haha.*tbe jeh* after the lab, we were talking about phy asgnmnt n we decided to do it together.but then he asked me to get some food first n he wanted to treat me!erkk, terkejut seyh!obviously segan, n wanted to tolak dat offer, tp teringat  a DARE from my fren bout dis guy!so i just accept it, tho rase segan nk mampos!n he asked me whre i wanna go, either A&W or subway, n i told him thre's nothing that i can get from A&W coz i'm a muslim, so better go to subway!i'm glad that he knows a lil bit about ISLAM coz some of my friends here know nothing about Islam.n at subway, he said that i can get the footlong if i want to coz he knows that i was starving during the lab. ciss, bertambah segan kot!tp sbb lapar nk mampos, i just ordered the footlong tuna.but weird thing happened!i cant even finish it tho i was super hungry.the only person that can make me feel like that is my tuuuuuutt!that person suddenly came into my mind!gosh!!n T told me that he'll b upset if i throw the subway.obviously i didnt!tapaw sudeyh.n when walking back to school, he suddenly told me that his stepdad is a MUSLIM. *tbe2 blur jap. stepdad tu ape eh?coz confuse bapak angkat ke bapak tiri!gle sengal, simple thing pon bole lupe!then trigt cite cinderella with stepsisters.baru la dpt tgkp!*haha.. i was damn surprised, n i asked about his mom!i was so excited to know more!but he said his mom is still a christian n his dad has passed away!alaaaaa...frust gle!!!asl la mak die x convert je??adeyh..no wonder la he knows about muslims.he said his family wont eat pork when his stepdad is around, n they wont eat in front of him during the fasting month.to show their respect. hmmm... now i wanna know more about him! we often hang out together these days, doing asgnmnts together.i found him a bit funny n SWEET!gosh, caer2.thre's one time when we're done with the assgnmnts, he got addicted with the games on my iPhone.haha.n he even gave me his fon n do whatever i want, including reading his inbox..gle sempoi la mamat ni! xde GF rupenye. good point!hak3..but still, one year younger, XMAW la!haish..n we went to wall climbing yesterday. i was climbing but he didnt coz he had to go to work. he was late for work, but he still come just to be my partner for climbing. he just wanted me to have FUN! fun habes la an.i managed to climb halfway jerrr!!too bad!coz i've used up my energy early on by working out at the gym n playing squash..so i had to give up earlier. mase nk turon, he sempat make fun of me. saje nk bagi i jerit when i was up thre.ngeng~~n he said sori for not spending a lot of time for climbing, n he asked me to come with him nxt time. :)) n one thing that i like about him is the way he treats me as a muslim.he seems to know our batas2 pergaulan, whre he doesnt simply touch my hands or something. i feel comfortable to be friend with him.klu nk pegi solat pon, he'll understand if i spend more time.
i've decided to move on, tp kenape eh, when i was with "T", i can still terbayang my "sejarah hitam". cett, hitam la sgt sejarah tu,an??haha..but then, i still think that it's a gud idea if "T" dpt hidayah to convert. he's such a NICE guy. i dont wanna put any hopes on him, but being his friend is good enough for me :)) 
he might be THE ONE who can help me to forget that person, but to have a serious relationship, I DONT THINK SO!!

saskatoon vs saskabush!

i call saskatoon as "kampong" but some of my intrnational frens call it saskabush!but my first winter here proved that saskatoon is such a NICE city!everything depends on how u explore and njoy it. so far, i could tell that my mission for winter is 90% accomplished!!owh yeah, i'm lovinggg it! :)) 2pairs of boots, boxing day shopping, tobogganing, snowboarding, snowfight, skiing, skating, broom ball, n curling. the only thing left is ICE FISHING!! aarrrrgghhhh, i'm sooo going for ice fishing, next winter!i dont care, nk sgt2!!huk3..so, let's summarize them with some picturessssss!!

n now the snow is melting, as the spring as started!!that is when SASKATOON SHINES.. my fren treated me by taking me out n went FLYING..awesome!such a great birthday gift!n somebody treated me in DQ for winning a bet. not really a bet, but actually a dare! n last week, were really having fun with the sunshine.. we went biking around the town, especially the riverside..saskatoon sgt cantik!! yes, my kampung is really nice, with the 7 brideges, n their so called saskatoon berries.whn the summer comes, i'll go to the berries farm, as well as strawberry farm, where we can do strawberry picking.lagi best from cameron highlnds!hehe..there's a lot that u can explore in this small city, n i have 4 years to do it. it's not a busy city, n u can find peace here.

i'm having fun with some sports over here. working out at the gym every week is like a MUST nowadays.n i always have some games to do such as badminton n squash. talking about squash, last week i played with dat "latin guy"!! still remember the one that i mentioned before??!! hahaha..awesomeness!!i have a crush on him!ngahaha..such a nice boy!naseb baek one year younger n non-muslim.kalau x, mmg sangkot habes2 dh..owh yeah, he's such a nice guy!now we're kinda close, as in we always talk or mayb just bump into each other sometimes.hehe.. n one more thing, SOCCER!!org cni pggl soccer, tp actually futsal. can u imagine how does it feel when ur first time of playing turned out to be a real game??man, i was freaking out at first!cuak nk mampos when the captain asked me to play!shaking jugak tgh2 court tu!haha..but i had so much fun hey!!n nxt week, we're going for the play-off! have to win, badly.last time was a draw.wish me luck!

i'm having a hard time with some personal stuffs, but i'm glad that my frens are always there to support me. whn my heart is broken into pieces, thre are friends who helped me to fix it.i've had enough, n it's time for me to move on.it's kholaaaasss!!evryone said so. but i'm not a jerk that will forget all those good memories. but u're such a jerk if u replace me with someone else!!!

when "teen" is over

i never thought that i can i have a great birthday though i'm milessss awaaay from my beloved ones. but things seem to b good when i get to know great friends who used to b strangers. a day before my "big" day, we went out for bowling.man, it's been a whileeee.i never played bowling since i landed in canada.gleeee rinduuu!!!

n then we went "lepaking' at the river side,taking some pics, n freezing in the cold. nevertheless, sunset in saskatoon is awesome!

 

n later we had dinner in Afghan restaurant, whre we laughed a LOT, as if the restaurant is ours! this is all because of Raj, with his crazy experiences when he was in "ragging period" at the university back home!hahaha..man, u 're so FUNNY!!!

  

yes, i had a great time, but at da same time i'm so nervous to wait for the next day..grrrr.. people in malaysia have started sending me messages, with great wishes, but thre's one particular person that i've been waiting for like evry second.i was pretty sure that i wont b having a good clebration like what i had last year, but i'm still hoping for a GOOD one.distance n diffrnce in time din stop me from being appreciated by the beloved ones, n i'm so glad that person called me n made me happy for at least an hour. :)))

it's sux to have a lab on my big day, but my friends here really made my day.i can feel the love in the air..ece

 

my fren got me this ice-cream barbie cake.comel, an?haha

 

my wishes are dot dot dot.erk, i said my wishes loudly in front of my frens which are a bit embarassing!haha

my fren ckp x bole sebut kuat2, nnt x kesampaian..erk,,,alaaaaaaaaa!!xpela, ade rezki, ade la an, ade jodoh ade la..kahkahkah

  

this is where all the continents met, at New Island Sushi! we have people from Europe,Africa, South America n of course, Asia. but NORTH AMERICA is missing??hahaha..xpatot betol!!

 

i had sooo much FUN during my birthday. Thanx to my international frens for the treat n giftsss!Raj got me a bunny, so that i can remember "bunny" hill, instead of barney!haha.n thomas got me medicine for my injuries.they said i really need it because i'm so active here.ye ke??naseb baek ubat sapu, klu ubat mkn, erk xtermakan la jwabnye..huhu..n the girls got me chocholates, n some stuffs from hallmark.n they want to bring me to the mall for shopping!!uhuk3..terharu nyeee..coz i've stopped shopping afta the last wintr break!hehe

n not to forget to my family n frens back home..kakak2 ku, nice pantun yek!to my beloved sister, k.jehan, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to u too..nnt balek kte celebrate on june 1st, instead,ok??n to my frens, thanx for the wishes, i really appreciate them so muuuccchhhhh!!!luv u guys sgt2!!

*xnk 20,tp nk 'teen' lagi. klu sebot twenteen ok x??*

baru la bole action!! :)

now i can proudly say that i'm studying in Canada.I think i've tried all kinds of winter games, except one, curling. but i'm going for curling maybe somewhere around nxt week.or may be i've missed some games, but for now, i've tried toboganning,snowboarding,skating, broom ball n finally i went for skiing today!!so baru la bole action sket, kn?x tere pon, but at least penah try.experience tu yg penting!! ye dak??hahhha..man, skiing for the first time was awesome!but da "awesomeness" was triggered by an accident! hahaha..i found it a bit funny though, but it's so painful!while skiing down da bunny hill(for beginners), i cant stop da ski, n i tot dat i will hit my fren at da front. but surprisingly, i just passed him n hit something else, which is a HUT!!

see!look at how "kemek" is dat thing now! n u shud imagine da impacts on me!

"hey, u're bleeding!" i was like, wut??man, pls dont do this to me!!~~

my cheek cant stop bleeding, n da lady in the hut helped me to stop da blood. 

 nk nanges ke x??saket glee kott!!! *but i can still smiling n laughing though*

with my new "weird" face.pipi seblah bengkak, n dagu as well!hahhha

*TRAUMA kejap*

I feel like giving up, till at one point i wanted to change to snowboarding.but i dunno y, i still gve a try, but feeling so scared of hitting the hut again.saket kot!!but surprisingly, i got to learn how to ski well n how to stop myself! n that led us to da bigger hill!keep moving people!! i was agak "glamour" afta hitting da hut. so like some people just approached me n telling dat falling is a good key to learn!owh yeah! it's totally CORRECT!! i learn faster afta dat incident, as in i never fall again at da barney hill..:)) so it's time for da lift!! owh, thre's another thing.i tried da T-bar to go up on da hill faster, instead of taking da lift.but it's not easy, hey. at first, i tried it alone n fell down terribly.n 2nd time, i wanted to go with shrey, as in to go side by side. but this is more funny coz we fell down badly.n it's not easy to get up with ski!!i dun wanna embarrass myself anymore so i just left n take da lift. but shrey kept on trying for like 4 times.haha.lawak seyh.

 

T-bar.it looks easy, right?but it is NOT, ppl!

in conclusion, snowboarding is waaaayy easier than *skiing. but snowboarding is a lot of FUN!!!so i wud prefer snowboarding!hehe..it was a gud trip though, having a gud group of friends. thanx guys! it's a good day tho many things happened.ie my "accident". n when Rocio left her bag @ tim horton's in North Battleford which is like 138km away from saskatoon.we reached saskatoon around 7pm, but we had to go back to North Battleford again, just to take the bag since thre's a lot of documents n credit card in thre. so it took us like 3++hour to go thre n come back to saskatoon.n we were almost running out of gas!man, tercuak jugak mase tu!!lampu warning pon dh menyale n we're still in da highway..gosh!!coz da worse case scenario wud b "sleeping in the car". gle ah!!n shrey told me "to pray to God".coz i'm getting panicked..hahaha..bagos btol!!but we're lucky again coz we managed to reach the gas station on time..fuuuuuuuhhh..lege! :) n now looking forward to play bowling tomorrow!hehe