Monday, June 21, 2010

ye kawan, i miss u too!

"cakap kat faraw org rindu die tau :( 
ask her 2 take care of herself."
(Faraw,msg ni ***** bg org smlm.pkul 3 pg.)

damn, i feel bad when my fren texted me this. all kinds of feelings came at the same time. we used to have a good time together,hang out smpi x igt dunie, n the best part ble sound depan2!cool gile kan? but u guys ruined evrything la. the world cup makes me feel even worse coz we used to have those 'kutok-mengutok time', football betting(gurau2 punye version la), berlagak pasal jerseys n players, n mcm2 lagi la. but those memories will remain as memories coz i dun think we can go back to that time. betol kate pepatah, sbb nila setitik, rosak susu sebelanga. i can't prtend as if nothing happened, coz thre's no way that i can forget evrything in a short time. but trust me, i MISS u guys toooo!!sangat2 rindu, okay??tgk la nnt, maybe one sweet day, hati ni dh lembut n dh kuat sket, we'll meet up, ok kawan?ksian la ko, jadi mangse keadaan sunggoh!i'm not exactly having a revenge on them, it's just that i'm not ready to face them.fullstop!

Saturday, June 5, 2010

ko mmg kawan terhebat la!!

1st time tgk gambar, mmg caer wo!nk kate ensem, xde la ensem sgt, tp sekadar sedap mate memndang la.based on my taste yek. ntah mcm mane, bole terkenal la plak.ni sume membe punye hal la.bile dh start contact, jadi kawan sudah la kan. nk lebih2, skola lagi kot! mmg langgar my prinsip idop couple mase skola2 ni. mule2 mmg kawan la, tp lame2 dh rapat semacam.klu laki ngan pompuan xde rase pape, mmg abnormal la kot. last2 ktorg decide jadi kawan baek, n xmaw lebih2.tp ntah mcm mane, after spm jd more than bestfrens la plak. klu dh name org brcinte, sume mmg nmpk indah la. even gadoh2 pon bole suke. bnde2 laen xyah ckp la kot, sume rase hebat je.name pun first love, mmg la nk serious coz i'm not da type bercinte utk maen2 yek!! i may not look serious, but i'm f**king serious la kalau dh betol2 masok jiwe ni!! tp bile org kate xde jodoh tu, kne la pasrah utk berpisah, x gitu?? nk trime hakikat dgn sng mmg not so me la!! hati x cukup nk lembut, n asyik nk ikut pale otak sndri je. tp at least try la jugak utk move on n pasrah dgn sume bnde yg happen. cume balek malaysia ni nk dgr explanation yg gempak from mulut org tu so dat bole move on dgn rela hati. pasrah tu mmg pasrah la kalau ditakdirkan jadi kawan je coz we started as frens jugak what?! tp ble ko ckp sume yg ko buat slame ni hipokrit n kte xpatut jadi kawan tu ape???x ke taik kerbau namenye?? n ade hati nk putus kawan cmtu je?? 3 tahun tu bukan sekejap taw!! n bukan senang nk lupe n padam sume memori pasal kauuuuuu!!!! u betrayed my trust! i've had enough! u're the worse thing that ever happened to me!! i hate u like crazy!!i'm gonna revenge, but in my own way!! i'll make sure u'll get what u deserve!! u have to live in guilt coz u make me live in misery. u chose a wrong person la!! u may think that i'm the one that u can simply toy with coz u cheated me for 3 years tp x pernah kantoi at all!!u're such a drama king la kawan!! only if i know why u did this to me, coz i thought that i really know u!! just so u know, i've been so sincere with whatsoever relationship that we had before, but if u really didn't have the heart for me, u better watch out!!! Allah tu maha adil.but if u have good reasons behind all these, i'll think of forgiving u. but for now, bole blaaahhh laaa!! u treat me mcm sampah when our relationship is over. i'm not begging for ur belas kasihan la coz i still have the pride.it's just that i love my friendship more than anything. it's ok if we're not meant to b together, but at least we can still b friends. feeling regret of what we had before is enough to show me who u are. trime kaseh banyak2 la for leaving  me with wounds that will never be cured!! "TERBAEK" la dapat kwn cm ko!!! panasssssssssssss  jeeeeee!!!!


p/s:please excuse my harsh words readers. i hope this will be the last one. i wanna move on, with at least a better feeling.n rase mcm nk delete this blog coz i wrote so much about him!!grrr...marah sunggoh!!
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