BUSY BUSY BUSY! oh wow i've been complaining for the past few weeks i believe. yes, school is getting busier, tougher, and annoying! lol i just felt like travelling and HAVE FUN out there. aigooo! studying on friday night is even worse, and yet people back home is busy preparing for the eid. nice gituuuuuu!! arghhh! I WANNA GO HOMEEEEE BADLY!!! glad that my family called when i was studying in the library? lol, good timing indeed! been busy back then that i couldnt have time to talk to my mom. difference in time is urrghh, annoying! everyone is home, not everyone coz some siblings have to go to their in laws'. but of course half of us is already 'macam nk pecah rumah'. big family indeed! i even asked my mom what should i cook for the eid? n seriously i jot down the recipe in my BMSC notes.lol. but the best part was when my mom showed me BAJU RAYE that she bought from her so-called Cik Kiah Bandung trip with my aunts and uncles. Seriously baju raye for next year? mak cakap 'adik balek malaysia baru ukur n hantar jahit acording to her new fashion style. haha seriously balek malaysia?! i wish i have that much money to go homeeeeeee! aigoo naseb baek tahan nanges though kne bahan with my own niece since my friends were around. humm how i MISS THEM badly right now. homesick gituuuu! :P
i'm BACK in Saskatoon, a place that I would love to explore more
hidden beauty, indescribable uniqueness n yes beautiful people
so here I am, meeting my awesome Toon hooligans again
i went back for 2months but they feel like it was more than that
'how was ur bf? did u lose weight? how's travelling? etc.
'i see ur awesome pictures'!
the first 2 questions mmg tak bole blah
well i didnt meet my so called bf, but i met my crazyyyy PHOENIX girlfriendsssss
i didnt have a good apetite for some reasons but i ate what i needed to eat
oh n i SWEAT a lot too!
balek malaysia turon 2.5 kg okaaay! gilo
basically the 2 months that i spent wasnt toooo great
time flew so fast eh?
i was a bit disappointed that i didnt get to have 'my own time with mom'
i wanted to travel or at least shopping would do
just like last time
she got other commitments i believe :(
but basically i had a good time with my family n relatives
2 years shouldnt feel like 20 years, hopefully
looking forward to graduate n earn my own money! :)
i had a bad dream a few days ago. something related to my family, a sad one n i even cried badly. n yet, i got a call 2 days ago from Malaysia. mak was admitted to the hospital. only Allah knows how i feel at that time. I was scared to death coz I'm still stuck in Canada if something happens. I was sick that I thought I needed my mom. But I guess mak needs her kids more for the moment. I've been updated by my bro n sys n even my niece about mak's conditions. haish jgnla homesick. All is well iA. yeah keep telling myself to b cool with it or at least act cool about it. get well soon mak! i wish i'm right beside u at this time :(
i managed to 'like' someone again but after i get closer to that someone, (almost everyday jumpe or just online n do crazy stuffs or whatever) i dont feel anything anymore. ouch.not once or twice but couple of times already :( maybe i get bored easily or or they're just not my type! HAHAHA! n please please please dont show interest in me coz i just hate it. i'd rather live without knowing how others feel about me. being in relationship is a serious matter for me coz i just dont give a sh** in my life! no more drama or whatever u wanna call it coz i cant handle it anymore. i'm happy being single but for some reasons i dont like how i feel right now. i'm not being ignorant or deniable of what's happening around me, but i think i'm just too scared of taking the risk! oh what a chicken! what should i do? *ok study rajin2 pastu habeskan duit JPA* perfect! :D
"i have promises to keep, i have dreams to come true, i have people to love n i have strength to rock the world. i wish to be a diamond in the middle of rocks, having hidden attractions that i still need to discover. i'm still searching NUR FARAWAHIDAH with some sort of magical qualities that can 'conquer the world'. i've lots of things to do in order to place myself at the very best position. 'GOD, i'm asking for ur bless to get through all the obstacles in my life n let me have the strength".