it's not easy, isn't it??

when i screwed up ICPU

i've learnt a BIG lesson

n dat's y i'm here

to start a new life

a very new page

to find myself

to learn what does life mean

n wut are da survival skills

but i realize dat LIFE IS NOT EASY

challenges come in between

n ALLAH knows what's best for u n for me

when u expect things to be good

but they turn out to b da other way round,

u wud think dat u're such a BIG LOSER!!!

there are gud reasons behind all these

n its only U,

only U that will decide

what n how u should deal with them

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I want people to have faith in me

i'm not a loser forever

i decided to do what i think will b gud for me

my aim in this university is to get excellent results

 DISTINCTION, specifically

n da first thing is to get an average of 80% for da first year

so dat JPA will trust me again

i know that distinction is waaaay harder to achieve

but it's not wrong to aim for dat, aite?

this building will be significant for my whole life

i really hope that i can have my parents n da whole family to be here

FOR MY GRADUATION

but diz time with BBIIIGGG SMILES

full of satisfaction

taking pictures, hugs n kisses in front of diz building

but will it be possible???

the hopes that i have r really killing me

coz it's not easy, isn't it??

dat was awesome!!

it's all about my "beloved" phy lab

i wud usually be frustrated by now but indeed today's lab is totally differnt!!

WHY??

the lab coordinator is still "bad"

but diz time my lab partner made a huge diffrnce!

LC: u're not supposed to do it this way n u shud b doing blablabla...,,

Holly: can u plz don't talk to me like dat, like I'm a STUPID???

and her tears started to roll down

WOW!!wut a big surprise!!

i din expect dat she cud burst out and cried in front of me n even da TA??

gosh! she seems to b strong n happy go lucky person

yeah, but i know she cudnt just stand it anymore

i wuz unhappy as well for being treated like a stupid person

coz we're still in da process of learning, aite??

we do need help n dat's y we ask questions

but da gud thing is..

the TA n LC treat us better after dat

the TA is usually being nice to us but diz time he is even nicer

as well as da LC

n for da first time we managed to complete everything!!

da whole thing for da first time!

can u imagine dat??

we failed our first lab, (extremely terrible)

getting a better mark for 2nd lab (but still not a gud one)

n now we really hope dat we can get EXCELLENT mark for da next lab

dat we had today

the best thing is when da TA said:

"everything looks gud to me"

FOR DA 1ST TIME

WOW!!dat was awesome

bcause all diz while we just heard like

"these figures dont look gud to me" or mayb "u better do it again coz diz is totally out"

I'm so grateful today

alhamdulillah..

both of us happy

da thing is,

NO PAIN, NO GAIN

her tears made a huge diffrence

but we made it coz we tried to b strong!!
thanx Holly!!

i've told her to cry more to get gud marks.

hahahahha

we cn b gud frenz nway

nk duit!nk duit!!

"ur account has been suspended coz u've exceeded ur credit limit"

wut da tuuuut???
owh, i shud become the fan of:

"stop ROGERS n FIDO from screwing Canada"

dammit..

i've taken loads of plan which i think wud be convenient for me

but indeed diz kinda money- grabbing thingy is killing me

I'm broke n I dun have money to pay da bill!!

i've paid da one dat appears on the fido store's screen

n my account is still not being activated

WHY????

i kept on going to da fido store

n kept on calling the customer service

but i'll always get differnt informations from them

fed up nk mampos lyn mnde2 alah ni

Arrrrghhhh!!!

it's all about da money

no matter how hard u save da money

dat wudn't b enough to survive in diz country

nk duiT!!nk DUIT!!

is thre anyone yg baek hati wants to give me some money??

JPAku syg, masokkn la duit cpat2

need to reactivate my phone account ASAP

or maybe org2 kat m'sia baek hati nk top upkn my mlysian numbr??

ANYONE????

GUD things to start with

diz morning mak kol

BESSSSSTTTTTT sgt2..

k.jehan buat open house so rmi ade kat her house
mak tanye adk sehat x??

of course la i jwb sehat..hahaha

then i ckp, mak nnt pos brg makan kat adk byk2..

n here goes the list:

nk rempah ratus, cube tomyam, sub bunjut

nk sardin packet nk blablablabla...
mak ckp berat la nnt

tp i ckp xpela mak, sket2 pun xpe sbb nk save duit, xnk spend on food byk2

sbb duit dh abez byr duit umah..

OOOPPPPSS!!

scare x sengaje i started to tell her my probs~~

mak, duit dh abez sbb byr duit umah,

adk pindah umah baru sbb xnk duduk ngan membe laki

n sewe situ mhl, dats y pindah

n akibatnye xpsl2 dh rugi cad1100 ats angin cmtu je

tp plg xpuas ati ble slalu kne maki hamun ngan landlord lame tu

sedeyh sgt, huk3.

study cmne plak? ok?

em, mule2 aritu x ok sgt sbb byk sgt probs

byk bnde kne pk, hal umah lg, mmg xstable, study pun xbrape nk ok

tp skrg dh ok dh, dh bleh score ok sket

mak ckp adk jgn maen2 dh..ni la dugaan namenye

SABAR jela.duit boleh dicari, jgn risau,k..

wuargh..sdeyh2, pg2 dh nanges,

but diz is like my booster for da day!!
It's a gud start nway~~

but then, i'm alreday late for da claz at dat time

n yeah, i was rushing for the bus, but a few seconds means a lot!!
i missed the bus for like how many times i cnt remember..hahaha

n as usual, i had to walk

but Friday is full of barakah..

suddenly Sara and Mike who might see me walking by the road, called me  n gave me a ride..

wooo..thank god!!everything seems good till now

BUT MAYBE NOT FOR TONITE

coz da old landlord is going to see me n yeah, he's da "spoiler" of my life ere

i'm broke!!!

this really tests my "survival skill"
duit dh tggl sket
jpa msok lmbt lg
cmne nk survive
owh, i'm BROKE!!
this is all bcause of dat stupid lease!!
omg!!if i knew it earlier, i'd rather stay at da hotel
da only thing dat makes me happy is of da studies
it's getting better~~~
more FOCUS coz i dun wanna think of da problems dat i have
just let others say whatever they want
i have to b strong, n remember da objective of being here
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nk masok dean's list
nk dpt DISTINCTION (aim high sket..haha)
nk prove to everyone dat i'm a biotech ppl!
not mdcine or even engineering
owh.. I LUUVVVV BIOOO!!
others plz go way from me!
xmaw2!nk bio related je.haha