K.E.C.E.W.A

yes, i'm totally K.E.C.E.W.A. kecewa with this one person. Let's call him as "P".n I feel sorry for my gudfren, n let's just call her "R". they were together since f4 but their relationship ended somewhere in 2008 or mayb in 2009. we used to hangout togeda, double dates, n sometimes even triple dates!old times always the best la! the thing is, both of them were not happy afta they broke up..to me la kan, nape la one of them pndi2 minx clash! afta quite some time, P wanted to b togeda again, but R refused because she needed some time to think about it. of course la kan.dh kne dump, then sdap2 je minx nk couple balek. xke ssh tu nk buat decision??but obviously deep down in R's heart, she wanted to b togeda again. But then, P never asked again, n he din contact or even pick up the calls n reply the messages from R. hey, common la. BUKAK MATE besar2, n realise that R is waiting for u. She never stop waiting!!! because of all ur promises n hopes, she even rejected other guys!! n do u know how does it feel when u find out dat da person u're waiting for is actually with someone else??? I know I'm just a fren, but it hurts me when i got to know diz.I can't imagine if I'm in R's place. considering the things dat P have told me bfore, which is like *not to think of a new relationship, more focus on study, got no time to play around, etc* I can say that P is such a jerk!! I can't imagine what wud I say if I meet P in da future. sori bro, but for now I h8 u so much. I treat u as my gud fren, but u hurt my bestfren, so I don't think I can treat u like old times. because u're not only cheating R, bt me as well!! I was damn shocked when R told me about this, I can't even breathe, n i'm super SAD, DISSAPPOINTED, n I dunno how to express my feelings here.I cried a lot when I was talking to R.n of course R cried more than me. I can't continue doing my assignments in the library, n my fren, Julia asked me to cool down coz I was so angry. gosh, lots of bad words came out because of this thing. n I went to da gym, so that I can actually forget about this, but it's not easy hey. seriously I can't imagine wut if the same thing happens to me coz I can see da possibilities. R told me to get ready n not to wait till I get hurt. But if da same thing happens to me, I wud swear dat I'm not going to look for someone who is in species G!! owh, I wish to b in Malaysia rite now. I need to HUG u babe!! b strong R. n for P, berbahagie la dgn teman baru. not to b mean, but u're even worse from the other fren! I'm terkilan with u, n for some reasons, i hate u for being part of  R n my life.

*i had a terrible day yesterday, today is not dat gud as well, but working out in da gym makes me feel better. n I can't wait to play squash with Thomas tomorrow..owh, I need to make myself busy so that I won't think of anything dat will only sadden me*