eotteohge?

i managed to 'like' someone again but after i get closer to that someone, (almost everyday jumpe or just online n do crazy stuffs or whatever) i dont feel anything anymore. ouch.not once or twice but couple of times already :( maybe i get bored easily or or they're just not my type! HAHAHA!  n please please please dont show interest in me coz i just hate it. i'd rather live without knowing how others feel about me. being in relationship is a serious matter for me coz i just dont give a sh** in my life! no more drama or whatever u wanna call it coz i cant handle it anymore. i'm happy being single but for some reasons i dont like how i feel right now. i'm not being ignorant or deniable of what's happening around me, but i think i'm just too scared of taking the risk! oh what a chicken! what should i do? *ok study rajin2 pastu habeskan duit JPA* perfect! :D

mcm drama la plak!hehe

i never thought that my 'kampung' yg sgt la kecik where u'll always say 'what a small world' has soooooo many koreans!wow! i'm surprised to see lots of korean  guys came to play soccer with us today.haha! siap bole buat korean team lagi n play against us which is like combination of all continents in the world.ecewah!  rase mcm dlm drama la plak to hear them saying 'chinca' 'hyung' 'biyan' 'kamsahamida' etc etc. oh damn senyum lebar2 je todaaaay :D:D now i cant wait to go to Seoul coz my awesome korean friend made a good plan for us!ooopppa! *ok gedik gile*

just bear with it :(

i dont wanna b an asshole

i dont wanna b selfish

no matter how hard it's gonna be

i just have to bear with it

stop complaining,

coz human beings are just like that

not everyone knows how to appreciate others

i shouldnt expect too much in life

so i'll take this as a challenge

to make me stronger insyaallah :)

 *only if everyone understands me, i dont think i'll hurt this much :( *

hello :) eh salam sounds better i guess

ke hadapan blog yg dicintai. i miss u so much. sorry for 'ditching' u for almost 2 months but i guess i'm back now! my dearie place where i can share whatever i want; for the time being i'm pissed for so much sh** that happened but i know i have to endure it.so pls b with me coz i'll need u in the future when i'm done exams.life's not easy. that's what i keep on telling myself n yeah it's something ugly that turned out to b truth. or maybe i should just use this blog to talk about my future.org cakap look for the future, not the past.hell yeah. past is something that's gonna hurt me more :( goodnite world

Say no to BF!

I know everyone thinks that i wrote this but trust me it wasnt meeeeee!! after having a thorough investigation, i found out that 3 of my frens involved. Omg, they hacked my fb n putting me in a very bad situation coz everyone thinks i'm so desperate!!! it happened on my birthday n everyone could see this stupid status on their home page.come on guys, i'm not that desperadooooo!! Please dont get it wrong, coz i just cant delete the status. i need to explain to everyone that it wasnt me who wrote it n the most important thing is that i hve to b fair to my fren.coz i hacked his fb n telling everyone that he's out of the closet, which simply means he's gay!! LOL.i know it's a bit too much since he's been attacked by his frens like crazy. But unfortunately, i even had worse than that!!! Everyone is making fun of me at school regarding the resume thingy n many people think i'm desperate for bf!! Durrhhh, my main point here, i dont give a damn to have a BF coz i like my single life now.well, i may flirt around, n hang out with any guys that i want but never crossed in my mind to have a serious relationship in the meantime! Of courseeee!! Being single is so much fun, so girlsss out there, SAY NO TO BF!! Suro mak je cari calon laki, ape susah!! Hahaha!

Heart attack!

I didnt expect anything on my birthday n i wasnt in a good mood either.Pee-em-es maybe! But anyhow i tried to give my very best expressions to everyone, so i act as cool as i can. All the wishes on fb n text messages really made my day, i mean according to southern hemisphere.if i'm home, i'll probably celebrate it with my sister n nephew since we have the same birthday. Homesick, feeling so depressed with everything, missing someone that i shouldnt, that's the worse state of emotion that i couldnt handle. I even waited for a call that will never happen again. So i decided to stay in school till very late, feeling anxious of what's gonna happen whn the clock strikes 12.i'm telling everyone that i'm not gonna throw a party n i'm not planning to have a party as well since i'm not in a good mood.so nothing happens at 12 coz i was walking home at that time :((

I opened the door. Assa..(trying to give salam) someone came out from the closet n seriously i swear to god that was the most scariest shock that i ever had! I screamed like crazy n i think i might even hugged my friend right away.but thank god i didnt coz that could b a big scandal in school.haha!shoot, seriously it was a 'HEART ATTACK' of the year, my heart hurts a lot but maybe because of too much shis*** too! Ooppss! n yeah they've actually planned so many things for me.well planned, seriously!! Too much drama, too much cheating so that i wouldnt notice anything. The cheesecake, gifts, food, movie, shisha n we stayed up till 4am. Who cares,it's my birthday!



So yeah that's the only picture that i got on my birthday.too much surprises that i couldnt snap anything.but one thing for sure i'll remember my 21st birthday forever.u guys are awesomeeee!! :))



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my toon town friends are just awesome! :)

reading week is over!! the week is not spent wisely but i had soooooo much fun with my friends here!! having our so called parties maybe every 2 days, doing some crazy stuffs, staying out late that we even had to wait for the first bus in the morning. those days were awesome coz i had crazzyyyyy people around. being in saskatoon isnt a bad choice after all coz i never thought i would meet those people in my life. they're from all over the world so as time passes we manage to learn different cultures n languages. during the break, i didnt travel at all, but only went to Table Mountain for snowboarding. omg, that was the best snowboarding trip so faaarrrr! tho i didnt manage to master the forward carving n the turns, but i'm still happy with my snowboarding skills right now. n i just love my snowboarddd!! hehe.next winter i will aim for Whistler Mountain, the place where they used for winter olympics.

since i only slept for 1 hour 2 days ago, so yesterday i end up sleeping for almost 17 hourssss!! like seriously that was the longest sleep that i ever had in my life!! now i should just go for my new resolution which is not to skip claaassesss at all!! hehe